I try to be open and honest in all my blog posts and social media life. I’m not afraid to show my laziness and tell the world that I binged Netflix all day and “forgot” to do the dishes–ahem–chose not to do the dishes–ahem. Because this is life. It isn’t perfect. I’m not perfect. I never claimed to be perfect. I never will claim to be perfect. And I will never try to make you feel less for your imperfections. Chances are, if I can see them, you can see them too. I don’t need someone to tell me that I am lazy or that I need to just pick up my crap. No duh! That doesn’t encourage me or motivate me.
I did a couple of loads of dishes in the dishwasher after posting that pic, and then life and laziness happened again. They piled back up a little more, never fully getting done. I would get them down a little, and then we would use more dishes and they wouldn’t get done. I’d rather spend an entire day with my husband than do the dishes, like we did on Monday. I just so happen to also prefer watching Netflix all day like I did on Tuesday, but that isn’t the point. Sometimes dishes pile up because I am lazy. Sometimes dishes pile up because life gets crazy and I don’t get home to cook until 7:30, we don’t eat until 8:30, and after watching TV with my husband, I just want to go to bed instead of stay up and do the dishes.
Laziness is one of the biggest things I struggle with. I am working on it. I think all kinds of positive and negative things like, “You are not a slave to laziness; you can choose well today.” “How can I have a kid if I can’t even take care of the house now?” “I hope I can be as awesome as my Mom someday.” “Perhaps I just need to change my perspective and be grateful for the things I have to dirty.” “Perhaps I am not where I want to be in life because I haven’t put forth enough effort and it somehow shows.” “I have failed as a wife because I don’t keep the house clean; that sure isn’t Proverbs 31!” “I’m going to go home and clean for just 30 minutes.” “I am not going to turn on the TV until I complete _________.” “You can do it, Megan.” “It starts with one choice.”
So, no, I don’t need you to fuel on the condemnation, I do it enough. But if you want to encourage me with tips, I accept, both monetary and wisdom tips! If you want to remind me that I am not alone in the struggle to keep my house clean, I accept!
But just as there are days when I have no motivation and know I need to get stuff done, sometimes there are days when this happens. Sometimes there are days when I finally get all the dishes done. It only took me two weeks between the mass quantity, the never-ending cycle of using dishes, and the loads I did that weren’t quite enough to keep up with that cycle. This is also life. Finally working up enough motivation to get life back on track. Sorry if you thought I was perfect. I’m not. I’m still a definite work in progress.